change of heart

i used to welcome winter. not necessarily with open arms, but to a point where we could coexist without much contention. i don't know what has changed within me, but something has. i want nothing to do with the winter. nothing. i've had a problem with sleep this week. it chooses not to come, and i blame the weather. i think it's because i don't want to wake up to snow everywhere, and if i don't sleep then i don't have to wake up. last winter i remember always trying to cheer ali up, telling her it wasn't so bad and all that. that was some bullshit. i have bad feeling about this winter, and since it's now general knowledge that i'm more on the psychic side than the ordinary side i think you guys should go with me on this one and keep watch. mainly just make sure i don't try the whole hibernating thing again. i'm just worried because who's the one who's gonna say it's not so bad? one thing that i did not and will not change my mind about is that snowflakes are beautiful.