in the end only kindness matters

i think there is a ghost in my house. when i'm in my basement there are these two specific spots where the floor sounds like footsteps. maybe it's just my dad going from the tv to the fridge. that's what i thought too, until i figured out he was actually asleep in his room. so i don't know. we almost got a ouija board on halloween but then i remembered i'm a huge scaredy cat right now. also wal mart didn't have one because they don't have anything. sometimes i get on online ouija boards at work. but one time someone turned the lights off while me and my cousin were doing it and it was scary. my whole scaredy cat phase started when i went with gavin and soren to that dumb "haunted" house in benjamin that 16 year olds go to when boys want to show off and girls want to hold boys hands. i missed thatboat so i went instead when i was 20 with two gay friends. anyway, they forced me to go inside so we were walking around and dumb fake things were on the walls so i was like this is dumb then i looked behind me and saw this ghost lady in a white nightgown leaning against the door and i screamed my whole life out and then i cried so we left. whether or not that's what i really saw is pretty debatable. but ever since then i'm legitimately scared of the dark. i try to sleep with my lamp on but then the lightbulb starts flickering. why are bathrooms so scary? because of those countless scary movie scenes with faces in the mirror like after you wash your face or shut your mirror? probably because if someone was waiting for you outside they would just push you back in and you would be cornered and they'd smash your head over your toilet and drown you in your sink or something. i've never been paranoid or scared of that sort of thing. i used to drive to topaz mountain by myself at night. i wonder when i will stop being scared. maybe i shouldn't go to topaz mountain by myself anymore… but i could probably still go to the ruins by myself, in the day, with my bb gun and switchblade. have you ever seen the show "deadly women"? it's outta control. there was this lady on there and she killed the lady whose house she cleaned, and then she cooked her down to lard, and she SOLD IT TO PEOPLE AT THE PUB an she TOLD THEM IT WAS PIG LARD and they ATE IT. what the hell. why are people so crazy? and also, why are people mean? i don't get it. like, be nice. what is so hard about being nice? occasional brattiness is understandable, and acceptable. but not one good thing comes from being mean. i used to be pretty mean. like a total bully actually. i'm pretty ashamed of some of things, i really wouldn't be surprised if i was on a few hit lists. one new years i made a resolution to be nice. i think i have done pretty well with it. it really is crazy how much impact you can have on people, and you get the choice of whether it's going to be good or bad. i think genuine kindness is such an amazing quality. gavin got me addicted to farkle again. i should probably go to bed. what. just listen to the song "hands" by jewel. you could even watch the music video where she saves people from a building.

hi

i ate a weird thing. i boiled some water, and i put an egg in it. then i put ramen in it, which was shrimp ramen. i think i saw them make it on ponyo once. my stomach feels weird though so i'm not sure if i will try it again.

i tried to log in to my blog a couple times, but it wouldn't let me, but i guess it will now.

like when i saw the movie the help for the first time and my brain was like pumping out thought after thought after thought and i was like i will write a blog about it, but then i ran out of gas because apparently my gas light is busted. so i had to walk home in the rain. basically i just wanted to tell people to be nice. i used to think that nice people were only nice because they were too afraid to be mean. but i've come to realize that mean people suck. maybe i will talk more about it later, i'm not really feelin it right now. i'm just feeling this weird egg and noodle stuff.

gavin and soren went to the bahamas this week. i could've gone but i basically have like ten dollars. or maybe they just told me i could come cause they knew i only have like ten dollars and wouldn't be able to. i'm not sure. but either way i still hate that there's snow on my grass, and they are riding boats to places with pink sand called rose island.

screw that.

hp

i feel like blogging is getting outdated. or i at least feel like my blog itself is outdated. look at it, it's pretty ugly. and why is it still called the wolf pack? i don't know. i just went to make a tweet but it was way too long so i figured i could just blog it. mostly it's about harry potter. because this is the week. and i realized that today. and i freaked out. and i realized that it's a good thing i'm going to be gone all week, cause all anyone would ever hear from me would be harry potter infused and they would probably start getting upset with me. and then, when i get back into the world do you know what will be waiting for me? harry potter and the deathly hallows part two. i can't even comprehend it. anyway i thought this would be more fun but it's not so later haters

love me some john locke

this made me laugh so freaking hard. locke is the man. and a straight up doofus

kittens save lives.

i've wanted to blog all weekend. i've written out like ten post in my head. but now that i'm actually doing it i can't remember all that i've wanted to say. kinda like when you're all wanting to bear your testimony and you go over things in your head and then you get up and you're like wait.. i'm up here? i know that like half the people that go up open with lines like that, but does anyone ever say things like actually i forgot what i was going to say, and sit back down? can you even do that? i feel like you'd get in trouble. like someone would come get you and be like you actually can't do that, you have to go back up. maybe that's why no one does it. or maybe no one does it because people aren't generally as weird as i think they are. someone try it.

my mom just called down "anna, bring the kitten up dad's playing with an imaginary one." i don't really know what that means, but i'm gonna go check it out. maybe i'll be back.

screw mcdonalds. my dad made me go get him a treat so i went to mcdonalds to get one of those new frozen lemonades they're always screaming about. then they were like actually you can't have one cause we are out. so i was like ok can i have a snack size mcflurry and they were like yeah i guess so. then i gave them a twenty, and they gave me change for a ten. so that sort of sucked because i didn't notice until i got home. and all this mcflurry is, is oreo dust sprinkled on a tiny cup of soft serve. and it sucks.

so i was supposed to go camping this weekend with my friends at a place called crawdad canyon just outside of st george. seriously sounds like my kind of place, crawdad canyon? yeah. so then my period was creeping up on my and i tried to take birth control to stop it but then melissa was like you will actually die if you do that and i will tell my mom and ali on you so then i stopped but it didn't matter because i was too late in taking it anyway. so i decided not to go and was pretty distraught about it. but the upside was i got to babysit this kitten all weekend. oh yeah. about this kitten. it's sort of like the sisterhood of the traveling kitten. we were at the sketchy allens in provo getting jesus candles because they have like a whole aisle full of them which doesn't make sense but it's awesome. then we came out and these people were like can you please take this kitten so duncan called his mom and was like i'm bringing this kitten home and she said no but he did anyway. and now it just takes turns between my house and cyd's house. and i have no idea how we still have it, but we do and he is so sweet but the is also the devil. you should see my hands, they are torn up. but i freaking love him, he kept me from losing my mind this weekend. seriously. i didn't leave my house. my mom even told their waiter that he should go out with me so i don't play with cats all weekend. thanks mom. and ali was on gchat but she would never talk to me. we watched a bunch of movies such as: teen wolf, the craigslist killer, justice for natalie holloway, (lifetime movies, obviously) kick ass, and this awesome 90's movie called airborn. it was basically a mix of DCOM (disney channel original movie) johnny tsunami and brink. you know it sounds awesome. there's this rollerblade race that seriously blows the one in brink out of the water. it's on netflix.

the other night i was looking at summer camp counselor jobs because i think that i would make an ideal camp counselor. i emailed some places, and they emailed me back. then i started getting crazy and found a bunch of jobs at this KOA lodge by mt rushmore. the description sounded awesome, so i tried to email them but then gmail was all this is actually not a real email address. so i don't know what the deal is, but i really want to be a water slide attendant there. maybe i'll call them.

i don't have anything else to say really, this is already too long. i'm glad the jarman's made it to NC, it was touch and go there for a minute.

balance

i feel like today was a pretty well balanced day. i stayed at work until 6 because i felt like it, that never happens. i went to taco amigo with gav for lunch. best. i informed the bank about my lost debit card. i did the dishes and i did my laundry. i curled my hair even though i didn't go anywhere. i made a playlist called "run bitch" and i ran. it consists of no doubt and nicki minaj and it rocks. i hate running. my take on it was i'll run if i'm being chased. but i'm forcing myself to love it cause everyone is always raving about it. so maybe i'll get there one day. plus when "roman's revenge" comes on and eminem starts screaming i feel like he's chasing me so i run faster. i'm pretty excited for nicki's superbass music video to come out tomorrow. that's one of my favorite songs of hers. even though she gets pretty raunchy sometimes she's still like seriously the best and i wish i was going to see her and britney this summer. i read some. i ate a banana. i watched part of pretty in pink. 80's movies are the best. maybe i'll even get to bed at a decent hour. or maybe i'll stay up and do more awesome things. who knows. i feel good about today, and i just feel good in general. this whole endorphin business is no joke. and tomorrow i'm going to eat a donut.

koosh

tomorrow is going to be an interesting day…

interesting because i'm going on a daytrip with my cousins. interesting because our destination is koosharem utah. and interesting because i have to wake up at six. which is in two hours and 17 minutes from this very moment.

if you don't know where koosharem, or koosh as i like to call it, is then don't ask me cause neither do i. it's a tiny town where my grandma grew up. and a town or two before it is called aurora which is where my grandpa is from. in koosh on a mountain called monroe mountain is where we have a cabin. it's in the middle of nowhere. but so awesome.

here are some visuals

favorite place

our koosh hats

can you spot the cabin?

can you spot the sweet fannypack?

it's seriously one of my most favorite places to be, love it. love it. love it. anyway i'm not even driving so i don't know what we're going to do cause they all will probably be too scared to explore. cause they are scaredy cats. i'm probably going to teach them to like, not listen to their moms. haha. and to swear probably. cause they need to learn that i think. i wish i could film it. cause it honestly is going to be a funny time. if anyone wants a souvenir hit me up. sometimes i have this theory where if i have to wake up early i just don't go to sleep. cause if you don't ever go to sleep then you don't have to wake up. i don't know if i'll go to sleep or not. one hour and 41 minutes now. whatever. i'll let you know how it goes.

ps i just looked up brit and nicki tickets. closest show is in vegas, don't even worry center floor tickets are seriously almost three thousands dollars. and the furthest seats are like 130. this is the worst and the world is over.

idk

i tried to play this april fools joke. on statements. and the joke was to just not do them. or at least to not do them on friday. i had way better things to do than statements. now they are haunting me. like really, they are bringing me to tears looking at them and thinking about them. i'm experiencing some... uh. i don't know i have to go.

title

how close to rock bottom is eating a mcdonalds kids meal in my bed after a whole day of watching jersey shore/grey's anatomy? i don't know. my mom was hanging out with her sister all day so i had to take advantage while i could! i'm pretty convinced that i need surgery for something. not only am i convinced, but i actually sort of want one. is that weird? mainly i just want to be a patient at seattle grace, so i can ask george why he's so spastic and why he hasn't gotten a haircut yet. does he get a haircut? don't tell me. i've been thinking about pets a lot lately. i decided that i'm just not meant to be petless. i just barely looked at the album of rosie that my sister has up on fbook (what's with everyone getting notifications on their phones these days? no one ever gets on chat anymore. i need to move on) i cried. i miss her. i want a new pet. i need a new pet. i'm thinking about letting bugg live in my cubicle. i wonder what people would think of that. ew, not in my cubicle, in her cage in my cubicle. what if i let her loose at work? hahahahaha. ew. ew. ew. hahaha. that would be so funny and terrifying and disgusting. i have to go to lunch with the ladies at work tomorrow. at least it's on the company's dime. everyone who was stuck doing the shitty work at the expo gets to go to it. i think i'm the only one who actually enjoys the expo. maybe because i actually feel somewhat important. if you don't know what the expo is, it's an irrigation expo where tons of weird people come and eat lunch and walk around and go to booths and classes. some of the highlights this year: when the health inspector was coming and they made me run around and fix everything before he saw it. then someone told me my hot chocolate was too watery. and i forgot to wipe out a cooler before i used it to mix tang. hahaha. sick. i scooped out all the floaties though. i really hope they don't find this.. i drank a mix of coffee, hot chocolate, and sugar all day. (i brewed it, might as well drink it) i took home two boxes of soda pop. someone called out my "boss" for teasing me. it was a way good time. i wouldn't mind a couple more rainy days. we need a good power outage. do those even happen anymore? they are the best.

those are some big snowflakes

i'm sure we're all real aware of the snow situation outside right now. i had this idea that if i acted like i was enjoying it the universe would see it and consequently it would stop snowing. you know how the universe works… so i drove to a park and i got out and sat on a swing. and i sat there until i realized that it was actually cold, which really didn't take very long. i don't know, i think the universe is on to me and that little trick i played. so i actually might have made it worse. guess we'll find out. until then, keep warm keep strong.

grey

driving through payson makes me feel like i'm in another state. which is exactly why i chose to go to the walgreens in payson to get some butterfingers. also twix ice cream. it's the best. now that i'm all stocked up i can begin my greys anatomy quest. here goes nothin

thinking out loud.

i wanted to write a blog about why chips are so good. it probably would've led into why other foods are good as well. then i got a stomach ache and don't want to think about that sort of thing. i honestly want to find the person who designed this indian cat shirt i have. i need to talk to them. we watched a movie the other night, called catfish. i didn't want to watch it because it's a documentary and i'm so sick of people who don't matter to me's words. like really, shut up. but it was crazy. like ali, you would probably have a panic attack if you watched it. you'd be so freaked out. maybe you have seen it, i don't know. i can't wait for harry potter in july. i'm getting so sick of the choices of movies on netflix. it's a problem. really though, chips are so good. i don't know if you know this or not, but i can't fall asleep in my room if it's hot. i also can't fall asleep if i'm wearing socks. sometimes i seriously sleep with my window open in the winter. i just like to know that my blankets are doing something because i don't even like blankets. deleting people from facebook always makes you feel better. being deleted from facebook does not. do you want to know one thing that i enjoy? going with people to run their errands. i don't know why. i just really do. i like when people tell me i look like hermione. is it weird that my friend sent me a post card to tell me to send him a package? or is it funny? i like.. oh no. i just realized that tomorrow is statement day. shit. i don't like anything.

blinding

i'm doing the only logical thing to be doing at three a.m…

an interpretive light dance to this song.

really diggin this whole snow white video. it's pretty creepy but really just the best

dontcare

if you took a look at my nightstand you'd get a pretty good feel for what life has been like lately. well, as far as ailments are concerned anyway.. i would tell you about them, i thought i could blog more, but it turns out i cannot. do you ever feel like you've just heard too many words? that's how i feel. i thought that maybe releasing some of my own words onto this blog would maybe help me feel better. maybe it could, if i had things to write about. i forgot how much i miss listening to the weepies. i guess i could talk about how i got my ears pierced today. but the only thing i really have to say about it is that i got my ears pierced today. i guess the lady was sort of telling us some inappropriate piercing stories and had a tiny tattoo in her ear, so that's something to talk about. my parents were pretty stoked on it, my mom wanted to hear all the details and my dad wanted to discuss future earring choices so that was pretty funny. for some reason i found a twix under my sink. does anyone else think that wounds inflicted while shaving bleed way too much? i do. if my car wasn't getting fixed i would seriously drive to topaz mountain right now and listen to the weepies. what if i just took my moms car…. no, i can't do that. i'll just watch pretty little liars instead.

keep out

even though i didn't really love bugg as much as i used to, that doesn't give my parents freaking permission to sneak into my room while i'm watching the extended version of the third lord of the rings (a solid four hours.) and snatch him. seriously. what a buzz kill it is after you're so stoked on the ring finally being destroyed to walk in your room and realize half of the things you held dear are now in a garbage bag (even though me and bugg weren't on the best terms, we still had some good times). second thing i noticed to be missing was my bouquet i caught at ali's wedding. that's when the rage took over the surprise and the slamming and throwing of things started happening. they even took my sour patch kids. and my favorite necklace with my favorite charm on it that my sister gave me. what the hell. really parents, what the freaking hell. i did manage to salvage the bouquet from the garbage as well as the bottle it was in. as for the rest of the missing objects i'll take up with them in the morning.

come my way

suuuuuper upset to find out that weezy and nicki plus all her alter egos won't be visiting utah on their "i am music" tour.

ANYONE FOR A ROAD TRIP??

clay as in cool

i have so many ideas of things that i want to do and make. i need to unload them. or else my brain will splode. mostly i just want to talk about one of them. i'm going to start with a big block of clay, and then i'm going to mold it into a ton of little squares, then i'm going to build a device that'll use the sun to cook my little clay squares. then i will paint and gloss them. and then i will take all my bunches of squares and use them to build really cool mosaics. really what would be ideal is if i made my own clay and paints and glue. but i need more native american blood in me to do that. maybe i'll try. i'm also going to build me a mini zen garden.

mostly what i thought about today was making road trip playlists. i'm not even big on playlists, but i was loving making one up in my mind. it's still in production. the blueprints are sorta set for it, but i still need to think of songs to fit into the musical journey of it. it made me happy thinking about though. FOUR CORNERS.

this wolf blanket is SWEET

sittingbull

turning this into this

took sorta long

WHAT

i'm seriously going to freak out if i watch this video one more time

three dollars well spent

for those who don't believe in destiny, i have a tale for you to make you a believer.

listen.

does anyone have this weird thing happen to them where when they drive south on the freeway they never want to exit? all you want to do is keep driving to a better destination than the one you're planning on destinating to? i end up in some weird places going south. but then again i just end up in weird places period. so this particular time i finally convince myself to exit in payson. so then i was just driving down driving down and to my right i see this thrift store aglow. turn around. go into the store. find the SWEETEST wolf sweatshirt i'ver ever seen.

SEE FOR YOURSELF

next season please

what i decided is i really don't want to talk about other cities that piss me off because then i will probably just try to hibernate again. i don't want to talk about how colds linger for however long they want or that my right ear is going deaf and my jaw keeps popping in a way i cannot explain, i swear someone punched me on the right side of my face while i was knocked out on nyquil. i wouldn't be surprised if it was myself, what with these crazy dreams i've been having. what i really would like to talk about is things that bring sunshine into my life. besides nyquil.

speaking of dreaming, i'm pretty sure i dreamed that i did a blog post, and i don't know if it was while i was dreaming that i realized it was a dream and i should do the post in real life, or if it was when i woke up, but i don't remember what the post was about now. and i don't even remember if i just made all of that up.

mario kart. nintendo 64 style AND wii style. you know why? cause wii has way more fun battle games but the racing is way more fun on the n64. i've been so immersed in this that while driving home from gavins tonight i saw something in the road and i literally thought it was a banana and swerved around it so my car wouldn't spin around and i'd lose the lead right before the finish line. i'm really not even kidding. it was awesome.

pork tacos from costa vida. cause you don't have to order extra meat, and you don't have to go easy on the ranch.

taco amigo. always.

watching snookie get arrested on jersey shore. seriously so funny.

mostly the thing that gets me through work, and just life right now in general is thinking and planning for the summer. i have mixed feelings with giving summer super hype. but it's really just inevitable right now. i'm sure you all agree with me. also just the fact that i have an ipod again and pink friday keeps me from trying to drink my bottle full of staples i collect on my desk in my cubicle. i have some shows right now to watch so maybe i'll share later what plans i've come up with so far. so stay tuned.

mostly i just like to end like that to keep you all on your toes, and excited. i know you're all dying to hear what i have planned. i just know.

over n out.

is there a reason you're driving around with your high beams on?

i just am thinking a few things about a few cities.

mapleton- STOP hiring cops. you have enough. actually, you have more than enough. everyone seems to know that but you guys. most recent example: being pulled over for having "high beams" on. did you think i would fold under the pressure and present you with pounds of illegal things by asking me why i wasn't wearing my seatbelt, when i clearly was? or are you just an idiot? each one of you is just itching to make the bust of the town, and go down in mapleton history. so go ahead, shine that flashlight all inside my car, ask me if that's alcohol in my water bottle, and cross your fingers that you are going to be able to use your handcuffs for the only time in your whole career. it's pretty irritating how you all are upgrading to brand new chargers from all the ridiculous tickets you've given out. i could go on for hours about all the stoopid mcop stories. just ask gavin, he's been pulled over like 15 times here, and he's not even a resident! i can't help but think of all the ways i could cause some real mayhem and give them all something to do. if you find yourself driving around mapleton remember a few things. do not speed. turn your brights off five hundred feet before oncoming traffic. and if you're wearing gray, you might need to remind them before they finish writing that seatbelt ticket.

stay tuned for more cities

ohh yea

also, this is the coolest thing i've seen all week.

tip: go to choiceshirts.com and search cats. they have one of the nicest selections i've ever seen.

triple threat

let me know if it gets more wolf'ed than this.

aaaand i'll probably top it.

anyone vote to make that real?